1st dae of term 2!!!
i wore nj uniform!!! hahaz, wanted to b loyal to nj. den ended up almost dying of the heat. hahaz, tt's exaggerating but i mean its really hot.
i was in the talking mood 2dae! esp after sch when me n pam spent like 2hours talkg. we were supposed to do hw... mug... but i was in the tokg mood so we ended up talkg till 4+pm. i m really weird. once i get into the enthu mood, i cant concentrate on academic stuff one. den once i get into stoning mood, i cant talk one. hiyo...... n when i get into the talkg mood, i will talk so loudly uncontrollably tt ppl turn ard to look. but when i m in stong mood, i talk like i m talkg to an ant n even the person i m trying to talk to dont even noe i m talkg n make me so sad coz i think tt tt person daoing me. haiz....
alot of ny gals posted to nj. i met sandy, karen, singyin, phyllis, daisy, geraldine (all 2/2 ppl), casie, jiayun n many others i dont noe due to my small social circle. hmm, n alot go to hc too. huijuan who's one of them came back n said there were like 50+ ny gals out of 100+ 2nd intakers in hc.
n i saw the list of ppl appealing, either in or out of nj. guess how many... dere were like 27 pages full of names lorz!!! n each page hv like at least 20+ ppl i estimated. n wat was extremely disappointing was tt most of the appealers were posted to nj. so i deduced tt they wanna appeal out... n obviously its those ppl who r loyal to hc or rj n if their appeals arent successful, dey will stay n b one of those who tok bad abt nj... haiz... y lidda... i like nj. nj rox! so i really dont like it when dere r so many ppl comg to nj but who r not loyal to nj...
anyway, dere r 2nd intakers joing each class den for my class, dey were all guys. 4sji, 5 tchs, (one of which was aaron, who came for 1 band prac). so of course the guys in my class were unhappy coz no girls ma. n the j2 who gave the briefing to 1st intakers even said it was a chance for guys n girls to flirt ard... so its like the guys in my class dont get to 'flirt' la. so every1 was like *dots* .... den yuqing n yingying, the 2 girls who talk most to the guys were not ard so the guys were super quiet. den we were supposed to self-intro to the 2nd intakers but every1 was like unwilling to.
let me analyse the situation. the guys i sae liaoz la. gerard n lionel kept calling dem 'monkeys', coz dey dont like tchs, sae dey chi communist... so i was thinking, wat?? hiyo... y u all lidda... n u all r supposed to b super friendly ppl ma. den lionel said he hv to put on a friendly front ma, like do the formalities only. not try to noe dem. den gerard was like trying to pull up his trousers, intending to make a joke out of tchs's shorts. so i complained to him after tt.
den the none main clique guys like weijian dey all were ok ppl so dey easily self-introed.
den the 4 sisters, expect xinyu, were like super paiseh. den i said its like they r the ones who always talk ma, n i m the one who always stone. how come its like i m askg them to go intro. den suddenly i sort of had the vision tt this ever happened b4. this part abt me saying i m supposed to b the one stoning blah blah... hmm... was it tt i thot abt it thru my mind b4, or i really said it b4, or tt i had dreamt abt it, sth like a vision of the future tt i had some time b4. hmm, i seem to hv these kind of ohhhhh yaaaaa, deja vu or sth lidda!!! ya ya, deja vu feeling like once in awhile. hahaz, i got the rite word to describe :) rare of me.. dis person who's not able to express herself clearly
ya, den they were like really complicating matters again, thinking abt whether dey can dont shake hands, exactly wat they have to sae. hahahaz.. but i said its like only self-intro lorz, n its not like meeting future husband, hahaz, i m crapping. anyway, so xinyu self-introed. n every1 followed. den we left them alone... i was trying to suggest tt the guys go play soccer wif dem but dey were unwilling...
den finally, the tchs ppl came down n told lionel or was it xinyu or gerard? anyway, so wat dey said was dey r tryin to appeal to hc. so dey wont hang out wif us. hmphz... so my class ppl were like talkg bad abt them even more la. haiz... y lidda... y do tchs ppl who r loyal to hcjc end up here n worsen the r/nship between eng-speakg ppl n ppl from sap schools like me. so poor me, who has been trying so hard to fit into the class, n trying to change herself to become more funloving n stop talkg so much chi, has finally realised the basis reason y i dont fit in.
different culture. different sec sch culture to b more exact. i dont noe exactly wat the diff is, i tink mayb it cld b coz diff between sap sch n schs wif the sth like upper class eng-speakg families' children.
i had always been thinkg its only bcoz i m too quiet. too stony. a generally stony (not totally la) person who came to nj expecting to stone away but ended up in a super funloving n talkative class. then todae, it finally dawned on me tt it was bcoz we r of diff culture. so i wanted to tell dem abt it but i didnt dare coz the mood didnt seem suitable. so i told pam in wat i tink was a quite loud voice but ended up i tink dey still nvr hear lehz. hiya, nvm.
hiya, my papa is back. disrupt my train of thoughts. hmphz...
anyway, den we went kap to eat n slack n cool out. esp me really heated up. sooo hot lorz... shant complain too much. i like nj. its just the material of the uniform...
at kap, huitian was trying out her silly stuff. n lionel kana most of it. 1st it was the supposedly mixing of mac's sauces is an exothermic rxn but actually when lionel tried to put his hand over the mixture to feel if its true, ht, slammed his hand down to kana the sauce. but ended up veri messy coz his n yuxian's shirt/blouse kanaed too. at first ht wanted to trick estelle, but she's super smart so attempt failed but lionel sway la. den it was the running in a forest n waving ur hands by ur face den turn back to look when ht call lionel. den supposed to turn back from both sides. lionel kept saying its slap his face so he was unwilling to do till gerard promised it wasnt. den end up is gerard hit lionel's head coz supposedly he crashed into a tree or sth lidda... hahaz
den lidda still not enuf, ht was supposedly positioning each persons hands den sth like slap the hands until last person, who's poor lionel again, den kana slapped on the face. so every1 was laughing like mad.
den terrence oso tried to do a stand up, close eyes, n stand down dere keep movg ur hands like an idiot thingy. gerard soon opened his eyes so it was ok but when its at a public place, den super embarrassing la, esp when u really dont open ur eyes for quite some time like his friend
hiya, i super crappy lehz...
nvm, shall cont. den we returned to nj n met andrew n huijuan. den phy lecture den the long chat wif pam. hmm, actually the chat i wanted to blog but its like 2 hours worth of stuff so i hv already pleaded pam to help me write down so tt i wont forget it like how i hv almost totally forgotten how my childhood was like. i want to hv a memory of jc when i grow older. not like now when i dont hv much of a memory of wat happened in the past...
think wat i said during those 2hours were really worth recording down. though i m already hvg trouble trying to recall... it was like she tok tok tok den suddenly i will rmb sth tt i can sae alot abt. but on my own, i cant come up with anythin to sae... hiya, basically i m weird. yup. every1 tries to sae i m not but like wat pam found out abt me, i m really veri self-awared. so when i noe i m weird, i m.
ya ya, i rmb some, i said tt i m actually a veri naughty kid. i used to b a super guai kia when in pri sch, will take initiative to do hw, dont need to b told to do, nvr go out, so parents were veri happi wif tt me. but now i m sooooo slackish, dont do hw, keep gg out, so mom is veri sad abt this change to a soooo bad girl. coz its like ppl usually use to b naughty when young but grow up to become more mature n sensible but i m like the exact opposite. become so naughty, always argue wif my parents, talk back sooo much like almost everydae, even make mom cry once in a blue moon. ya, i noe all this, i m self aware tt i m bad. i noe how to behave like a matured person eversince i was quite young but i hv been heck caring abt it after i started turng bad. but i m trying to become a guai kia again. actually not all tt guai la. heez. actually i just trying to stop talking back so much n stop saying stuff tt make mom angry, the rest still b wat mom considers naughty (like still wanna go out coz i m in jc liaoz ma, but mom still think gg out is being naughty...). heez.
y i wanna b guai again lehz. coz i think i hv really been a veri fako person. like be so nice to my friends but so naughty n bad to my family. i always easily get pissed off by my family. like almost everydae will get pissed off n sae veri rude things to them. however, to my friends, i m usually just ok wif watever dey do to me. at least i just swallow n dont burst out. but with my family, i will burst out at almost everythin.
so i think to b a gd person, shldnt b just on the outside, to outsiders. shld b to my family too. ya, i knew this since the time i turned bad to my family, since entering sec sch
hiya, i just got angered by mom again. rude again. hiya... kkkk, breathe breathe, kkk. relax. relax.
ok, so i was saying, ya, since then, i hv started to b a rude kid. so i shall try to b a gd kid again. yup. try. though i just lost control again. hiya. kkkkkkkkk.
so tt's a small part of the stuff we toked abt (other than like the last 3 paras). ya. i like to tell ppl who i truly m. provided they r willing to listen. yup this was wat i oso told pam. n i nvr had cliques. close friend, ya, for lessons, but i was like noe every1, ok wif every1 but actually i m veri alone person. i used to go ard alone sometimes.
den now i finally found pam n huitian who hv similarities to my personality, i start to hv clique too but huitian zaoing liaoz... nvm nvm. at least still hv pam. but if she oso zao, den i will b sort of a personal loner again... den just go ard wif every1 lorz... n get a bf. hahahaz... talkg crap again... like my parents allow me to hv one
wishing; 3/22/2004 09:20:00 PM
Have Read
'04 year-end holidays (highest number of books read in a long time)
-The Five People You Meet in Heaven by Mitch Albom (gd read)
-Princess Diaries: Third Time Lucky by Meg Cabot (fun read)
-Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom (must read - inspirational)
-Slab Rat by Ted Heller (full of office politics and R21 stuff - not for kids)
-The Da Vinci Code by Dan Brown (makes u want to finish it)
-A walk to remember by Nicholas Sparks (simple but meaningful)
-The Prime of Miss Jean Brodie by Muriel Spark (can identify with)
-The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks (romantic love story with too much R21 stuff)
-Message in a Bottle by Nicholas Sparks (even more R21. ugh)
-The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint Exupery
-Unstrung Heroes by Franz Lidz (autobiography about his four uncles and father)
-The Rescue by Nicholas Sparks
-The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time by Mark Haddon (very unique POV of an autistic boy)
-The Summerhouse by Jude Deveraux (love the breadth of the plot, one of my favourites)
-Wild Orchids by Jude Deveraux (alternating between two first persons' view - unique, but don't like e plot)
-Sophie's World by Jostein Gaarder (philosophy tb in a story; gets abit dry though plot saved)
-forgot what i read...-
-Working Wonders by Jenny Colgan (story of an urban planner)
-Angels and Demons by Dan Brown (impressive intelligence with bits of great humour)
-Just between Us by Cathy Kelly (thickest bk i've ever read-600+pg, too long for me but not bad)
ha, started a few bks but didn't enjoy them enough to read more.
'06
-Life of Pi by Yann Martel (novel based on true story; a lot to learn from the book - animals, religions,
survival, appreciation of simplicity; marvelous descriptions of both the tangible and the intangible,
such that I could feel their realness; bits of very enjoyable humour; a must read)
-The Complete Analects of Confucius, Volume 1 - Asiapac Comic Series (some good teachings.
didn't read everything though)
-The Parable of the Pipeline by Burke Hedges (lent to me by Shujun; like she said, its a short version
of Rich Dad Poor Dad - good financial tips)
-The Alchemist by Paul Coelho (simple story with deep meaning)
-Fish! A Remarkable Way to Boost Morale and Improve Results
(hai, doesn't seem to be working for me - cos im not applying..)
-haven't been updating from Jun'06 to Jul'07-
'07
-Take a Chance by Sarah Webb (very interesting twist towards the end)
'08
-A Child Called "It" by Dave Pelzer (very saddening. made me realise how significant family is in how a child behaves)
-Whatever You Think, Think the Opposite by Paul Arden (refreshing book with many pics)
-The Shadow of the Wind by Carlos Rui Zafon (amazing how people can think of so much plot to pack into one book, wld b a gd tv series)
-The Time Traveller's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger (the story is interesting but i think the ending cld hv been better written)
-This Book Will Save Your Life by A.M. Homes (a bit thought-provoking on relationships but i didnt like e abrupt ending)
-Freakonomics: A Rogue Economist Explores the Hidden Side of Everything by Steven D. Levitt & Stephen J. Dubner (gd knowledge but partly qte repetitive)
-For One More Day by Mitch Albom
-The C Words by Mark Mason (made me keep wanting to read on. light & funny)
'09
-Return to Summerhouse by Jude Deveraux (another good read from Deveraux)
-The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini (gosh such vivid descriptions! very well written book. i liked d theme of friendship and the realness of the story)
'10
Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro (a must-read!! i love the expressed thoughts of the protagonist, esp those about friendships, and the writing style - it seems like she's telling me her story specifically to me)
How to Save Your Own Life by Michael Gates Gill (an inspiring read, for emotional liberation and greater joy in life)
Reading
on hold
The Omnivore's Dilemma: A Natural History of Four Meals by Michael Pollan
Waiting for chance to get hold of
The Little White Car by Danuta de Rhodes
Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy
The Heart is a Lonely Hunter by Carson McCullers
A Brief History of Time by Stephen Hawking
Le Scaphandre Et Le Papillon or The Diving Bell and the Butterfly by Jean-Dominique Bauby
My Left Foot by Christy Brown
Gotai Fumanzoku or An Unsatisfactory Body (Translated into English as No One's Perfect) by Hirotada Otatake
Kafka on the Shore by Haruki Murakami
Other Recommended Readings by Marc
The Origin of Species by Charles Darwin – Few books have had as significant an impact on the way society views the natural world and the genesis of humankind.
The Tipping Point by Malcolm Gladwell – Gladwell looks at how a small idea, or product concept, can spread like a virus and spark global sociological changes. Specifically, he analyzes “the levels at which the momentum for change becomes unstoppable.”
David Copperfield by Charles Dickens – This is a tale that lingers on the topic of attaining and maintaining a disciplined heart as it relates to one’s emotional and moral life. Dickens states that we must learn to go against “the first mistaken impulse of the undisciplined heart.”
Lolita – This is the kind of book that blows your mind wide open to conflicting feelings of life, love and corruption… and at times makes you deeply question your own perceptions of each. The story is as devious as it is beautiful.
Getting Things Done by David Allen – The quintessential guide to organizing your life and getting things done. Nuff said.
How To Cook Everything by Mark Bittman – 900 pages of simple instructions on how to cook everything you could ever dream of eating. Pretty much the greatest cookbook ever written. Get through a few recipes each week, and you’ll be a master chef by the time you’re 30.
Honeymoon with My Brother by Franz Wisner – Franz Wisner had it all… a great job and a beautiful fiancée. Life was good. But then his fiancée dumped him days before their wedding, and his boss basically fired him. So he dragged his younger brother to Costa Rica for his already-scheduled honeymoon and they never turned back… around the world they went for two full years. This is a fun, heartfelt adventure story about life, relationships, and self discovery.
Self-note: Tip for my future business =D
give employees reasonably high pay to keep them- otherwise they are unlikely to stay loyal.
treat employees not according to how well they treat me but how conscientious they are at work
(of course, musn't expect them to only do work throughout the entire working hours -
give some breathing space too, we are humans, not machines) Movies watched(listing started on 6jan08)
in cinema from VCD/DVD
1Sep07: "Hairspray" w TK, GH & SH
14Sep07: "Ratatouille" w mom & extended family
28Dec07: "The Pianist" w Jus & Pam (heartbreaking but good lessons; i recommend!)
2Jan08: "I Am Legend" w Sherm (scary! but good acting; thought provoking; i recommend!)
5-6Jan08: "A Good Year" alone (excellent show! i like the acting; funny; good lessons; touches my heart; i recommend!)
11Jan08: "Le Grand Chef" w WLing, JT & Irene (good! funny, very touching, :) nice; watch if like humour+meaning+food)
7Feb08 (CNY 初一): "Ah Long Pte Ltd" w parents (pretty hilarious - but u gotta understand dialects, some teary parts. wells typical of jack neo movies but with diff content)
11Mar08: "The Leap Year" w Sherm (so sweet! :) and apart from couple relationship it touches the theme of mother-daughter and best friends too)
6Jun08: "P.S. I Love You" w Sherm (don't know if its coz we watched it on laptop, coz it didn't impress me as much as it did for him in cinema)
8Jun08: "The Forbidden Kingdom" w Lisa, Karen & Sandy (ums..guess i'm really not into kungfu)
8Jun08: "What Happens in Vegas" w Lisa, Karen & Sandy (simple,relaxing show)
7Jul08: "我和狗狗的10个约定" w Sherm, his ma & sisters (very simple,touching but actually not my type of show)
10Jul08: "Before Sunrise" w Sherm (hmm maybe watchg on laptop really affects appreciatn of movies..)
30Sep08: "Vicky Cristina Barcelona" w Sherm (i didn't like it as much as i thought i wld when i saw the ads)
31Dec08: "Yes Man" w Mom (inspiring and funny)
11Feb08: "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button" w Mom (not as impressive as i thought it wld be)
1Jul09: "Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen" w Yumei, YY & Matt (the best thing was the soundtrack. heh.)
14Aug09: "GI Joe: The Rise of Cobra" w Joyce (it was awesome! best action movie i've ever watched)
17Aug09: "Food, Inc." w SYL & RuiQ (learnt some stuff abt the American food industry but it was a bit boring and not worth the $10)
22Sep09: "The Time Traveller's Wife" w WB, VanD, WLing, CHL, Irene, VanQ, Mf, Pg (i liked it. having read the book really helps w udsg)
21Nov09: "Gokusen" w Mf, Eva, Tony, Sarah (funny inspirational movie)
24Dec09: "十月围城" w Tony, WLing, VanQ (action action and a bit funny? tony criticised the plot. my fav scene was the running n jumping through the crowd along the five-foot ways w/o cuts)
30Dec09: "Sherlock Holmes" w Irene, Tony, Sweetee (my favourite genre of books made into a movie - what else can be more cool? acting effects humour excitement suspense all in)
12Jan10: "Avatar 3D" w Mom (didn't appreciate the digital effects which everyone wowed about. content etc was so-so. cathay's 3D glasses were too heavy for me)
8Feb10: "The Truman Show" w Ky n sis n Yuhshin (a must-watch. very thought-provoking, funny. reminder to be spontaneous and create your life the way you want, instead of falling into a typical routine
14Feb10: "New York, I Love You" w Mom (I loved it! a good couple movie with meaningful pointers to keep it going. but i think some stories could be more developed)
16Feb10: rewatched "The Pianist" (still find it good, tho i still feel first viewings are the best)
17Feb10: "Valentine's Day" w CHL n WB (laughed throughout - a feel-good movie; liked the fact that the various stories binded tog so well with the little surprises here and there, vs NY ILU in which each story was separate)
20Feb10: "赤壁二" w Addy, Karen, Sharon, SJ (should have watched the first one first cos i ended up not knowing who's who and what's happening and had to keep asking :/ and couldn't pay attn.. if not i think it should be a pretty good movie..)
4Mar10: "Alice in Wonderland 3D" w Mf (i found the 3D effects of this @ CCK Shaw SO much better than Avatar @ The Cathay =/ and the movie was much more enjoyable too! - cheered a sad me up :)) favourite quote - the Mad Hatter: “You used to be much muchier before. ... You have lost your muchness.”)
18Mar10: "Nodame Cantabile" w Irene, Mf (i thoroughly enjoyed some of the orchestra pieces - SO impressive! the expressions of the actors were really amusing :D)
23Apr10: "Ice Kacang Puppy Love" w Mom (funny, touching and meaningful - about love between friends and family. i cried 3 tissues! cos some touching parts i could really understand the feelings of the characters involved)
Inception
Letters to God (very simple Christian movie)
22Nov10: "Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows" w Ame, Irene (they loved it. pretty good, i guess the main problem i had was that im not familiar with HP :X)
13Dec10: "The Chronicles of Narnia: The Voyage of the Dawn Treader" w Sj (not bad, could follow the story unlike HP. like the meaningful teachings, too long - in a post)
2Mar11: "The King's Speech" w Ame (hilarious, inspirational, tho it doesn't impress me that much to understand why it's the Oscar winner)
Mar11: "10 Things I Hate About You" very funny. silly sweet high school romance. just right for having breaks in between doing homework
23May11: "Pirates of the Carribean: On Stranger Tides" w Wb Yl Ame Pg (pretty good - scenery, freakish parts, fighting scenes, dressing, humour, bits of Christianity like when the Spanish said "only God gives life")
6Jun11: "Xmen First Class" w Wb Ame Pg (i was very keen on watching it and it was really good! intellectual, makes sense, cool action, some humour)
9Jun11: "Legally Blonde 2" w Irene (seems like some dumb blonde movie but kind of meaningful too - speaking up for yourself and what you stand for)
17Jun11: "Something Borrowed" w Sandy Lisa (quite funny, somewhat meaningful wrt friendships. they didn't like the lack of sense for one part tho)
16Jul11: "Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows: Part 2" w Irene, Sweetee, Kw (not bad. i didn't understand some parts again but the humour and effects were pretty good)
Aug11 "Horrible Bosses" w Ma (she fell asleep! gosh. the movie was very crude i must say but there was the humour)
25Oct11: "The Three Musketeers" w H (i would rate it 3.5 for humour/intellectual language and 4 for action. it's by the same producer or director as Sherlock! but a bit less awesome albeit a good chill out movie)
5Nov11: "Real Steel" w Hl (action packed but not too hardcore for me. i liked that there was the father and son element and how the father eventually softened his heart and especially the part when charlie was having trouble telling max sth and max was so understanding saying "Don't worry. Your secret's safe with me." touching and demonstrates true fighting spirit)
12Dec11: "50/50" w L (adopting her words - a heavy topic put across in a lighthearted way, but not taking away d meaning. most of it was rather hollywood-ish trashiness but there were a couple of punch lines "u can't change ur parents, but u can change d way u respond to them.")
25Dec11: "Mission Impossible: Ghost Protocol" w KY (ultimate action packed! super tense almost throughout the movie, and interesting Tom Cruise made it such that not everything happened smoothly - he would jump and misland and get all sorts of injuries..it's really the courage to jump without hesitation even though you are not sure you'll be alive after that. KY loved d movie and said she would watch it again!)
3Jan12: "Sherlock Holmes: A Game of Shadows" w KY (i love mystery (: and the witty sarcastic dialogues. good level of excitement with the action. didn't understand some parts as usual. i like Holmes and Watson they depict such a true pair of buddies ;D)
23Jan12: "You are the Apple of My Eye" w mom (now i understand why guys like this movie so much - the anxiety of chasing after a girl and the acts schoolboys do to get the girl's attention and hopefully affection. the initial fluttering and the subsequent quarrelling)
22Mar12: "The Iron Lady" w KY (really love Thatcher's sharp words. inspiring and thought-provoking, tho i was still left uncertain of what to do with my life, the movie is definitely an encouraging one)
29Mar12: "Barney's Version" w SJ (a funny movie of a screwed up life of a man who had 3 wives, smoked and drank but very heartwarming at the same time, the relationships with the dad and the 3th wife - quotable quotes!)
27Apr12: "The Hunger Games" w Mom
4May12" "Avengers" w MF n PS (funny, action-packed)
7Jul12: "The Amazing Spiderman"
21Jul12: "The Dark Knight Rises" (fantastic depth, loved the twists)
20Aug12: "ParaNorman" w Mom (simple funny animated movie, heartwarming support)
Performances watched (listing started on 25Apr10)
20Jan10: Patrick Marber's Closer by outoftheBLUE, NUS Science w Pam (
13Mar10: The Rain Came Down Like Pearls the Night I Died... The New Musical - Sing & Tell by Mark Chan w Addy & Jy
21Mar10: Quintessence by NUSCO w CHL
